My heart say.....i need to start "bloging"..........again.....yes~

Yes......it's been a long time....since my last "real" entry at my older blog...... hmmm....i just keep busy with facebookingg....instead of my blog....but it change...facebook to me now...emm...myb not as fun as before.... yet i think to consider "Deactivate" my facebook account as soon as i'm ready...as soon as possible maybe....it is not an easy thing to do~ (-.-")7

Facebook was like drug...once you start using it...you'll keep craving for it..day and night...but actually...instead of something posted by my BFF that attract me....
nothing different ....it just a plenty of word or status, yet most of them doesn't bother me either...meaningless. As for me... Facebook vs Love.... Love win... since i start using facebook, it was not because i am interested with it...but while using it...it feels so close with that LOVE...it was......before....

But for now....that love...doesn't mean anything to me anymore....not hate...but just indifference.Yes....opposite of love is not hate....but indifference.

Yet there's still something special about facebook to me.....something or maybe someone...
who came right a way after i manage to forget my "1st love"...the one and only person that could make my heart beating as much as my 1st love does. Still there is a "but".... that make me think... i should not have any "extra" feeling towards him. So i tell my self to just ignore that "crush" or something.....let just friendship be a friendship...since we never meet or know each other very well...it is not as hard to do so.

Today....i will officially announce that "I am SINGLE inside..and outside" no more crush....no more hard feeling.....just need to learn more to love myself and love HIM even more then anything in this world.

"I do have someone i love, but i tend to ignore that feeling for now, by the fact that both of us still have a long journey to be a successful daughter and son to our parent. For this, i put my trust to HIM with all my heart, if HE really made us for each other, no matter how far we separate, when the time come..i surely believe HE will let us meet once again, and at that time, i am ready to be his bride for the rest of his life" :)

p/m: soory for my broken english..doesn't matter as long as it can be read....hahahah~